Forget about New Year's resolutions...
I mean, they always fail, right? And what's the old saw about "one day at at time"? I'm going to try something in between.
Back story: Our nanny quit, unexpectedly, almost four weeks ago.
She let me know one day she was going to be late, I said OK and asked her to keep me posted on when she'd get here, and we didn't hear from her again. About a week ago we did get a text that half explained what happened, and asked if we wanted her to come back. Um. No, thank you.
So, we've been without a nanny for a while. I've still been working, of course, and trying to watch the kids at the same time. It's not always easy, and to try to get more done, the children have seen more screen time than they've ever had in the rest of their lives combined. I feel kind of crummy about that, and the Magic School Bus theme song is now on repeat in my brain. Hey, at least I know all the words now! I've been yelling and grouchier than usual lately. I know there's a good reason for it, but it still seems unfair to treat the children poorly because of something outside of their control.
the only thing you can control about a situation is your reaction to it, right?
I still have to work and be without a nanny during, but I can try to make the experience as pleasant as possible. It's easy for me to get sucked into work and my computer and start ignoring the kids, until they get too loud or start fighting with each other, and then they get my (negative) attention.
I'm going to try a New Week's Resolution.
My resolution is to faithfully take my scheduled work breaks, to completely leave the computer alone while I do so, and to be present with my children. I am also resolving to take a few deep breaths before responding, if I start to feel angry at them or feel like yelling.
I'll post back at the end of the week and let you know how it went, so stay tuned, and wish me luck!
Do you need a do-over? What's your week's resolution going to be?
Oh, and do you know of any good nannies in Memphis?!